I haven't blogged forever and have so much to catch up on, but that thought completely overwhelms me. So I will start with today and post about the last how many months in between new posts.
When New Year's rolls around you are suppose to have this list of what you will do to make yourself better, but I read on someone's blog what when you want to make a change do it now, and move forward. There is my new motto, "Do it now, and move forward"
A lot happened in 2009 to make me whom I am today, whether it be good or bad. I am trying to be who I want to be and believe that every day I make decisions that shape me.
I also read on someone else's blog,(hmm do we see a pattern, I read a lot of blogs, so never update mine (-: ) all of their confessions, she is a Fantastic person who has given me a little push to list my "dirty laundry" so that I can be a better person tomorrow, but also to remind me it is okay to be who I am, and that I don't have to be perfect.
So here are the not so great things that one day I hope will not be listed come 2011
- I drink way to much coke,
- Every once and awhile I sneak a piece of chocolate, it doesn't agree with me, but some days it is what I need.
- I curse the people who upset me and my girls when no one is around (does that make me crazy?)
- I don't make my bed every morning, I once heard that it is better not to, is that true?
- I say I am going to do things, and sometimes never follow through.
- I have undone crafts everywhere, although towards the end of last year I did get better.
- My room is always a mess unless I know people are coming over.
- I always have at least one dish in my sink, unless you just caught me on a day that I have ran my dishwasher twice.
- My laundry is never caught up.
- I don't blog the way I should.
- I am still very upset with a certain person that has hurt me and my family, but I am finding ways to move on.
- I wish and pray daily for someone to come in to my life that will love me for me and accept my girls as their own.
- Tells people that I hate my dog, but I secretly love the dummy!
- Need to lose the 20+ extra lbs that I am carrying
- Say I am going to exercise every morning, but it never happens, that extra hour in bed seems to help me cope with my day.
- Puts things off to the last minute.
- It is Monday again, and my garbage can is still sitting on the driveway from last Monday because I am too lazy to bring it in.
You know the sad part, I could keep going, but maybe we will save the rest for another day.
Today I am starting the following changes:
I am going to exercise, probably not every morning but at least 4 times a week.
I am going to run a 5k in April, so I better get going huh (:
I will bring my garbage can in tonight.
I want to be closer to my girls; I am going to "Live in the Moment, treasure the doing a little more, and the getting done a little less"
I want to be closer to my Father in Heaven who has given me more than I deserve. This is made very obvious by the list above! I am so grateful for my calling as a RS teacher and for everything it has already taught me. I am blessed with a ward of incredible women!
I am going to do a FULL load of Laundry tonight, not just the items I need for tomorrow.
I will let those I love just how much and how important they are to me.
My last post was about going private; I have since decided that I am not going to. I didn't want a certain individual to be able to read about me and my girls. But you know I hope they do read this and realize that I am not the person they think I am. I hope this person enjoys reading about me and my girls and seeing what a fantastic life we have. You can have what in a sense you stole, because trust me I am better off and will be a much better person for everything that has happened. You will answer for everything one day!
Well enough for my ramblings tonight…tomorrow is a new day and a new start!
