Day 1 - Week 1

I knew I was out of shape, but not as bad as I proved myself to be yesterday.

I started out with the walking portion as it says to for the first 5 minutes. A "brisk" walk as it was called. I kept thinking this isn't bad, I am doing okay. Now it was on to the first "2 minute" run, the "trainer" kept telling me to keep it at a pace that when the next walk came that I would be able to catch my breathing and feel ready to run after the 3 minutes. I was ready to be done, but I didn't I pushed my way through, made it through my next 3 minutes and was on to the 2nd "2 minute" run. I once again pushed through this, but if I am being honest with myself I was already hurtin'. Seriously?

I kept pushing, but I didn't make it through my 3rd run or the 4th and final run. I "briskly" walked the rest of the time.

Are you kidding me? I couldn't even make it through 29 minutes of training. How on earth am I going to be able to ever go 30 minutes jogging/running without walking or resting?

So from any runners out there....any advice?

Here I gooooooooooooo

Today starts my eight week training for a 5k that doesn't exist! I need to do something to jump start me again, and I found this great podcast that does an eight week training.

I, when brave enough will post weight, endurance and everything else I hope to gain or lose in this process.

Wish me luck.

I have a personal ad?

I am totally posting this for me, to remind me I have some of the best friends in the world, ones that love me for me, make me laugh, and are always looking out for me.

 
 

A little background, I met 2 of my glirlies for lunch, and I was just having one of those moments that we all have, we'll just call it a little pity party. I have just decided I don't like being single, I am happier not having to deal with things that I dealt with, but I so want someone to share my life with. Anyway after going on, after lunch one of my best girlie's posted a small personal ad for me on her blog without my knowledge. I couldn't stop laughing when I first saw it. You are a nut M2, but I love ya.

Say AHHHHH…

Jayci had her first dentist appointment yesterday. To be honest she did much better than I thought she would. There was no screaming, crying, thrashing around, just a little "You want me to open my mouth? I don't think so."

I have to say that I have the best dentist around. He was actually my dentist growing up. He truly is the best. If anyone needs a good pediatric dentist Dr Chester Smyth is your man.

Here are a few pics…I even threw a few in there for Danaka so she didn't feel like Jayci is "my only sunshine" inside joke that will share at another time.

Yeah Me!!!

So I did something that I have never done today. I can't say what yet, but maybe one day.

To top it off after I completed my little task, I read my horoscope and it said the following:

"Take a stand, knowing when enough is enough. You have far more to offer than you realize"

Stay tuned (:

Here starts the NEW ME!

I haven't blogged forever and have so much to catch up on, but that thought completely overwhelms me. So I will start with today and post about the last how many months in between new posts.

When New Year's rolls around you are suppose to have this list of what you will do to make yourself better, but I read on someone's blog what when you want to make a change do it now, and move forward. There is my new motto, "Do it now, and move forward"

A lot happened in 2009 to make me whom I am today, whether it be good or bad. I am trying to be who I want to be and believe that every day I make decisions that shape me.

I also read on someone else's blog,(hmm do we see a pattern, I read a lot of blogs, so never update mine (-: ) all of their confessions, she is a Fantastic person who has given me a little push to list my "dirty laundry" so that I can be a better person tomorrow, but also to remind me it is okay to be who I am, and that I don't have to be perfect.

So here are the not so great things that one day I hope will not be listed come 2011

• I drink way to much coke,
  
• Every once and awhile I sneak a piece of chocolate, it doesn't agree with me, but some days it is what I need.
  
• I curse the people who upset me and my girls when no one is around (does that make me crazy?)
  
• I don't make my bed every morning, I once heard that it is better not to, is that true?
  
• I say I am going to do things, and sometimes never follow through.
  
• I have undone crafts everywhere, although towards the end of last year I did get better.
  
• My room is always a mess unless I know people are coming over.
  
• I always have at least one dish in my sink, unless you just caught me on a day that I have ran my dishwasher twice.
  
• My laundry is never caught up.
  
• I don't blog the way I should.
  
• I am still very upset with a certain person that has hurt me and my family, but I am finding ways to move on.
  
• I wish and pray daily for someone to come in to my life that will love me for me and accept my girls as their own.
  
• Tells people that I hate my dog, but I secretly love the dummy!
  
• Need to lose the 20+ extra lbs that I am carrying
  
• Say I am going to exercise every morning, but it never happens, that extra hour in bed seems to help me cope with my day.
  
• Puts things off to the last minute.
  
• It is Monday again, and my garbage can is still sitting on the driveway from last Monday because I am too lazy to bring it in.
  

You know the sad part, I could keep going, but maybe we will save the rest for another day.

 

Today I am starting the following changes:

I am going to exercise, probably not every morning but at least 4 times a week.

I am going to run a 5k in April, so I better get going huh (:

I will bring my garbage can in tonight.

I want to be closer to my girls; I am going to "Live in the Moment, treasure the doing a little more, and the getting done a little less"

I want to be closer to my Father in Heaven who has given me more than I deserve. This is made very obvious by the list above! I am so grateful for my calling as a RS teacher and for everything it has already taught me. I am blessed with a ward of incredible women!

I am going to do a FULL load of Laundry tonight, not just the items I need for tomorrow.

I will let those I love just how much and how important they are to me.

 

My last post was about going private; I have since decided that I am not going to. I didn't want a certain individual to be able to read about me and my girls. But you know I hope they do read this and realize that I am not the person they think I am. I hope this person enjoys reading about me and my girls and seeing what a fantastic life we have. You can have what in a sense you stole, because trust me I am better off and will be a much better person for everything that has happened. You will answer for everything one day!

Well enough for my ramblings tonight…tomorrow is a new day and a new start!

Going Private

I am going private next week...if you want to keep reading my blog let me know.

More to Come...

I have been MIA again and I will update again hopefully this weekend. Lots to update.

I needed to post this though..

For those that don't know, my sweet Nana passed away on July 22nd, I was cleaning out my ITunes and came across this song, and it has just right the words....

I miss you sweet Nana...

I came by today to see you
Oh I had to let you know
If I knew the last time that I held you was the last time
I'd have held you, and never let go
Oh, it's kept me awake nights, wondering
I lie in the dark, just asking why
I've always been told
You won't be called home
Until it's your time
I guess heaven was needing a hero
Somebody just like you
Brave enough to stand up
For what you believe
And follow it through
When I try to make it make sense in my mind
The only conclusion I come to
Is heaven was needing a hero
Like you
I remember the last time I saw you
Oh, you held your head up proud
I laughed inside
When I saw how you were standing out in the crowd
Your such a part of who I am
Now that part will just be void
No matter how much I need you now
Heaven needed you more
Cause heaven was needing a hero
Somebody just like you
Brave enough to stand up
For what you believe
And follow it through
When I try to make it make sense in my mind
The only conclusion I come to
Is heaven was needing a hero
Like you
Is Heaven was needing a hero
and that's you

Out with the old, and in with new…But not intentionally

On Friday, April 17^th, I was in a car accident, you wouldn't think by looking at the pictures that my car would have been total loss, but it was, so I had to say goodbye.

The accident was kindof scary. Here is the story. We were heading east bound to take Danaka to her game. The road splits into 2 eastbound lanes a little bit before a Walmart entrance. I had just changed lanes. The lane next to me was backed up, but a truck had just left enough room from a guy heading westbound to make a left turn into Walmart, by the time I saw him it was too late. Note to all you moms out there, NEVER, I repeat never throw your arm in front of your child sitting in the front seat. I did and took a nice trip to the hospital for a minor case of whiplash and a lot of strained muscles on the right side. I knew I was okay, in A LOT of pain but nothing serious, but as a "precaution" still visited the ER. My girls thank goodness were perfect, and I was better in a few days.

It was all the other drivers fault which is good for me, and I got a new car out of it. I love my new car but miss my grand prix.

Accident Pics:

My New Joy Ride...

Hair, Hair & Hair

I LOVE doing hair…I just wanted to post Jayci's wedding day hair do, but I can't just say Wedding Day, because then most everyday would be a wedding day. I am sorry sweet J that I like to do hair, one day you will appreciate it.

Presenting…Mr & Mrs.

On April 16^th, my little brother and Danica were married in the Mt. Timpanogos temple. It was a cold day following a night of snow fall, but it was beautiful.

I did my brother and Danica's video montage and was so excited to show it at their luncheon. I even took a ton of great pics at the temple that I had put in. It started playing just fine when all of the sudden half way through it just stopped. I was so sad. I went behind the head table and tried to get it to work and just cried. Come to find out that the program I use to convert it to a dvd was not complete. I had just got a new computer and it transferred the program but not the authorization so it only gives you the "trial" version, which will only transfer ½ over. Oh well, we got it fixed for the reception and that is all that matters. It was all Danica's dad's fault though. He was speaking about having things go wrong and they already had 2 strikes. That is right before I started the video, so I can't take full blame.

Here are some that I took at the temple. Following the photographer around the temple to get pics, made me really want her camera so my pics would be even better…maybe one day J

Here are some of me and my girls that the photographer took, and also some of Danica's bridals and a few other shots from the day. She did a great job.

Didn't my cousin do an AMAZING job on their cake. Way to go Nicci.

Easter time!

Easter was so much fun this year. Jayci knew what was going on and Danaka is still my little girl who gets excited.

On Saturday the girls went to the Turner's for their Easter Egg hunt and dinner…I love these pics

They make it impossible for the older ones to find all their eggs! Creative work guys!

We had a great Easter Sunday. I have a new calling in my ward as a teacher in Relief Society. I will post more about that later, but that made the day even busier.

I love this picture of my girlies looking at eachother.

The best part about Easter was when showed up to my Nana's, my sweet Nana who is so innocent and thought the following was an Easter shirt. She loved the bunny on it. Oh my sweet Nana.
We had a great dinner and a great egg hunt. Jayci is going to be one to watch out for in the upcoming years! She knew what she needed to do, with a little help from "PaPa" (I love that she calls my dad that).

The Easter Bunny even came on Saturday night and brought me and my girls Marley and Me and some yummy treats. Thanks!

Take me out to the Ball Game!

The past 2 years Danaka has played softball, last year was a horrible year, Danaka did great, but we just won't get in to the coaching staff, this year however was Awesome. Danaka moved up to play 14 & Up. I was so worried about her moving up, but now am so grateful that she did. She had terrific coaches, Mike, Brad, Brian and Ryan. They cared out about the girls, but also liked winning. Danaka's team didn't win one game last year, so this year to win all but 2 was so much fun.

Danaka mostly played short and second, and when they played a harder team that could hit far, she would play the outfield. There was one game where she was standing in right field and a ball came towards her, a little high, I thought no way, I know what a bad mom, but dance came in to play and she did a little leap backwards and caught the ball. She looked at her glove in amazement, then looked at me holding it up. I was so excited for her and the look on her face was priceless.

Danaka's team the "wild frogs" had an awesome season. They do this one thing were someone yells "Wild" and the all yell "Frogs" and get into position. I love it.

They came in second place, but had to play on a Saturday after closing ceremonies, because they were tied with the only team they had lost too, and we were the only team they had lost too. It was an exciting game, but they ended up losing. But hey second place is great.

Thanks to the coaches this year, and thanks to the Vandertoolen's for making Dan move up and for helping me out so much. You guys are great.

Danaka, I am so proud of you. You came so far this year, and I am so excited to continue to watch you grow in a sport that you love so much. Way to go MuNcHkIn!

Happy 80th Birthday Nana

February 11^th was my Nana's 80^th birthday. We planned a surprise Luau for her. It was my job or should I say my privilege to take my Nana to have her hair done that day, she thought that we were just all meeting for dinner. All day she kept telling me, you guys aren't planning anything other than dinner right? I will not be happy if you are. My nana has never given me the third degree, but I guess there is a first for everything.

We invited tons of family and some great friends. We rented out a building to have it in so that we would have enough room. For those of you that don't know my uncle is Tongan and does shows with this family. They are always so much fun. I use to hula with my cousins when I was little, but started to develop a little bit of a complex when I was the only white girl out there, and I have to admit I just couldn't shake it like they can.

My aunt made tons of great food, pulled pork, salads, everything you can imagine at a Luau. My cousin Nicci, made the cake and it was beautiful. I am not one to take pics of food, but I couldn't resist on this.

It was my other Aunt's job to get my nana there, and she did great. She told her that she just had to pick Jackie (mu aunt) up for dinner, because my uncle was out of town.

The grandkids each got to say something about Nana, the ones that spoke did great. My sister did the best poem about my nana. If you want to read it click here She did a great job. Since I am not a great writer and not the best talker I decided to make a video of my grandmas life. It was so fun to see all the pictures and learn a little bit more about my sweet Nana.

It was a great party, and a great way to honor and FANTASTIC woman. I love you Nana.